Living From Transmission

then what is born is consistent access to your personal transmission it is the most authentic experience of what you truly are what we actually are what everyone actually is is before experience right so in zen they go what is your face before you were born it's a classic pointer right it means what are you before you experience you right you can't look at it because you can only look from it but you can look at your own transmission your own personal transmission you can look at and you can get very good at feeling it and you can create a very harmonious embracing high valuing relationship with your personal transmission this is very very important i would say it's one of the things that has improved my quality of life as a human the most because once i got a hold of this once i kind of got a sense of it i was like oh my god this is it this is what i need my whole life i had gone through life and i would look inside and i would there was nothing there and i would go around and meet other people and it was if there was something in them but there wasn't anything in me now was there actually something in them probably not i don't really know but what i do know is there was nothing in me and so what happened is i would get easily pushed around by social dynamics what people wanted from me i was a big people pleaser so i would get pushed around by that fear of rejection fear of abandonment all those things and it was because i didn't have any sense of a healthy sense of transmission or personal transmission inside of me right and so once i began once this began to appear in my body and i began to get a hold of it and feel it i was like oh this is me this is scott this is scottness suchness this is my frequency this is my energy this is my baseline meanness and then it just began to settle and almost becomes a shape kind of like in the liquid armature i have it as a temple spire but something like that almost like a mountain and it's always there and it's you know good times bad times tired not tired It's always there.