Look how hard I tried

And when you do that, you just always end up finding that it wasn't self-sabotage or I'm stupid. Or because the key to healing, you know, these unresolved traumas in these pockets is to see it from their perspective when they developed, right? But with your own awareness and consciousness now. Because when you developed them, you didn't have enough capacity or insight to understand the complexity.

But now you do. And when you do that, you just always end up finding that it wasn't self-sabotage or I'm stupid. Or it was always, oh, that's what I had to do to get safety, love, and approval. So, of course, I would keep doing that.

And then that retells the whole story. And it's not, oh, I'm broken or a failure, but look how hard I've tried to get love and didn't get it, but never gave You know, then it's like, oh, okay, well, then that maybe I can trust myself. Because