I don't know what I am

What am I? What is looking out of these eyes? What is thinking these thoughts? What is speaking these words?

Is it what I truly am? Or is it only an expression of what I truly am? To me, it feels as if that is just an energetic density in the middle of my head. And when I drop below it, it begins to dissolve.

But yet I can still see and I can still talk. And then I drop below that and I go, oh, I am this energetic density in the middle of my chest. I am emotion. Am I emotion?

And it feels true. It feels powerful and exciting to be emotion. But then when I drop below that, it also dissolves. So easily all these things dissolve like leaves blowing in the wind.

So I drop deeper and I find my personal transmission, the thing that's kept me warm and safe for so many nights, that has helped me fend off my fear of emptiness and my fear of dissolution and impermanence. And I speak to it and I ask it, Are you what I am? And it tells me no. And two, that dissolves, but yet I am still here.

I don't know what I am. I only know what I am not. I am. I am that.

Hi, I'm Scott, a spiritual teacher guiding people through spiritual awakening by embracing our humanness.