The pit was the doorway

I was born too sensitive for this world. I was born too sensitive for my family system. I was born too conscious for my parents. I was born too alive for the town and the environment that I grew up And because of that, I was ostracized.

I was not included. I was made fun of. I was left behind. I was misunderstood.

And because the people that loved me and the environment that I grew up in and my friends couldn't see me, I learned to not see myself. And in the not seeing of myself, I perpetuated my own self-abandonment. And the self-abandonment grew into a large wound of emptiness, empty, infinite pit in my chest and abdomen. And then I ran from the emptiness until my first awakening brought me to my knees and showed me that I am the emptiness, that there is no separation between me and emptiness.